MEMOIR 

FIRST LOVE

Do you ever experience losing someone very special because of death? If you do, how does it feel? Do you felt like something is missing? Or do you felt your world stops because you never think that would happen? Do you felt the pain? Did you feel lost? Or do you have rumbled emotions? I don’t know, you don’t know, we really don’t know.

When I was in elementary, I had a crush on the treasurer of our class because of his smile, kindness, funny jokes, intelligence, etc. Even when we were already in high school, I know I still like him. Time has passed, though I saw him with different girls, I still have special feelings for him. After we graduated from high school, we had our separate lives. I go to college and he works for his family. We don’t have any means of communication except facebook. We are so busy in our own lives, a reason why we don’t have any news about each other. Until one day....

I was on my 2^nd year in college back then when one of my old classmates texts a group message stated “bakit mo kami iniwan agad? L” I was curious and asked him why. He answered “si Audrey.. wala na si Audrey”. I was dumbfounded back then and I felt like my world stops. I don’t know how to react but still I managed to text him “is it true? But how?” he replied “Because of motor accident”. My tears started to fall. He, my long time crush... has just passed away.

We went to his wake; my old classmates were also there to give their sympathy. I can’t still believe what happened. He looks like sleeping on his coffin. I know he still has a place in my heart. I don’t know why I felt so much pain that I can’t stop myself from crying. Rumbled emotions came through me. I feel lost; a part of me was missing. A part of my heart was gone. Since then I realized, he was my first love.

Two years had passed but every time I remember that matter, I still became lonely but tried my best to forget it. Though he only had a short life, I am still thankful he became a part of my journey and I had good memories with him. I, his family, his friends, and his workmates will always remember the goodness he brought into our lives and it will remain in our hearts.